What Dreams May Come

I have been having some weird dreams lately. I am the type of person that hardly ever knows I'm dreaming when it's happening and when I wake up, I am relieved that it was only a dream.

Occasionally, I will have dreams about people who were once in my life and no longer are--those who are alive or have passed. Dreaming about the ones that have passed freaks me out because it feels like they still exist in this world. When I wake up, I can't speak to them and this makes me very sad. The flip side is at least I get to see them again even though it's only in my head and that makes me happy because they are still very much a part of my heart. 

My mom has the ability to sense things before they happen especially in her dreams. It is very strange how she channels things, people and events that have yet to come. I was once told that I had the potential to do this but I closed that gate a long time ago. I'm not quite sure why but it's most likely out of fear.

If I had to choose between dreaming and not dreaming--I'd choose not to only because I don't know I'm actually dreaming. If I was able to somehow make myself aware, I wouldn't mind it as much. I could all of sudden have wings when the monsters tried to get me. Or better yet, have today's winning lottery numbers pay me a visit!